Entry 8 : Problems, why u no gone?

Hallo~~

Ahh, need some more time. Living here making me suffocate, really. Having a lot of problem in my mind right now, unsolved problems, until up to a level I cried. Sounds silly, right? Hmm...I don't know what else can I do. Argh, why I keep telling my problems here? One of the critical problems that I must faced is my financial problem, of course. I want to tell you more but let me keep this simple. I assumed that I'll use money to buy food just RM4 per day, I already fixed about it. Of course it is not enough for the big-eater like me. But I already exceed my money on food for today and yesterday also. Pergh!!! I cannot imagine how I gonna live for the next day. Must be a lot of money I use for useless thing. (Hmm? Really? Is buying food really is a useless things?) Ahh...I don't know yet. If I know the answer, I'll let you know. But for now, let me do something is more important right now, which is, study the science computer. See? This is one of the problems and not to mention about the chemistry subject also. I cannot understand some of the notes. But I'll find a way to overcome it. Somehow, I just feel that I am not serious about my study. I lack of confidence in myself. How I am suppose to do? If I getting myself way like this, seriously, my future is going to doom, man! So, in shaa allah, I'll gather my will to change it. Oh, God, please don't torture me anymore.... 

Okay. Chiao!!

Entry 7 : Tired but...

     Last night, I slept at the time near 11 pm. Oh? Peculiar, right? But that's what happened! Usually I made my move to bed at least the clock ticking near 1 am. Maybe I used up all my energy during the daytime. I'm not sure what that I've done...but certainly tiring. Maybe the aerobic cause it. Or more to my brain who is tired actually? Hmm....okay. Leave aside those question.

     What I really want to say that, because I went to bed early than I expected, that's, you know, today I accidentally woke up earlier, about 4.30 am. I remembered that today I am going to sit for a test. A computer science one. I think it's scheduled exactly at 5.15 pm. You know I'm not well-prepared for this. Hoping a miracle come to me is completely absurd, so of course I need to be more, more work hard than anybody else, otherwise, I will get a shameful results, don't you think? So because of that, I need to study! So then, goodbye. Wish me luck to get a good outcome from it.

Entry 6 : The allowances already in~

Olla~~

I heard that the allowance for this month are already in. But some of us only. Not ALL OF US are getting it yet. Well, surely heaven is coming. Hahaha, brows lifted! Okay. I mustn't be a spendthrift. Control yourself. This money isn't for to fulfil your fun or what. This money only for your study, okay? Say it hundred times, but when you see a thing that attracted, you must be considered to buy it, isn't? We are just human. Even we do not want to do something, sometimes we can't resist it. Yeah right. Well said, Atikah! Clap your hands. Actually, there are many things that I want to buy when I went to outing. We'll see how I manage to buy the cheapest and the qualities is the greatest of all it. Hahah...what am I nagging about? Whatever the commotion is about, my first priority is FOOD! I must buy the food otherwise I'll be the dead meat. Hyperbola. This time I want to buy. Let's make a list ;)

1. A packet of pears
2. Biscuits
3. Testpad
4. Sweets
5. Chocolates
6. Breads
7. And many more....heheh

 Okay. Let's stop here. I will add the list next time. Heheh ;)

Entry 5 : "Aerobic Style"

Hello~

We meet again. Miss me? Haha! Yeah right. Ah, I want to share something to you all. Today, when the co-curiculum period, we did the aerobic. Seriously, I don't like to do aerobic. No style. Haha, silly excuses. Okay, here comes the best part. When I do the aerobic, the Wonder Girl song come out! The title of the song is Nobody. Wow, the cat really catch my tongue there.  This is the exact song where my old friends and I did the aerobic too during the Pendidikan Jasmani period back then. We are asked to create an aerobic which is rely on our creativity. We must finish it between 5-10 minutes. Of course we made the simplest one. Amateur. There are 18 girls in my class which will combine with the girls from another class. Then we compete with them. It's weird how that stage able to accommodate us. I thought that the stage going to collapse if we are jumping instead of just doing the poco-poco one. Man, I still can recall it like yesterday...how I miss them so much right now. Ah, I really want to show it to you guys but the video is not here. Whatever it is, I just enjoy for today. I just hope that I WILL enjoy for tomorrow to. Without worries, of course. So then, have a nice day!!

P/S : Why the teachers are not include the Gangnam Style song? Weird.

Entry 4 : My little chaotic sister ;))

Assalamualaikum and hi~

Well, I had talk over phone with my younger sister who are sitting for her PMR exam this year. She tells me that she so stressed up with her friends. She told me that her friends no longer want to befriends with her. She tried to consult why with them but they kept running away from her. In the end, she seek my help, while crying out loud on the phone. I just cannot do anything. All I can do just giving her my advice. Mostly I heard sobs over there. I told her that maybe she made something that they are not comfortable with. She said that of course she did something wrong towards them but she just couldn't figure it out. But when she tried to find out with asking them, they will running away. She couldn't stand anymore and had enough with it and that's why she finds me. At last, I just say that she should just concentrate on her trial exam which is coming soon on this June and put this problem aside first. And we talked endlessly. After a half and hour, our conversation ended. When I checked the balance of my topup, only RM0.40 left from RM1.54. It's okay as long as she felt relieved a bit, right? So then, that's all for this entry. Actually, I musn't tell someone else's problems here, right? Because this is my blog and I suppose to talk about my problems or myself,isn't? Ah, nevermind. Okay, goodbye~

P/S: Oh my credits!! I need to topup quickly!

Entry 3 : Hmm??

In the meantime listening to the radio, a bollywood song popped out! The OST of the 'Kabhi Kushi Kabhi Gham'. It's really have been a long time since I heard a bollywood song like this. This make me remind back to the old school times, when my friend and I watched the TV during the holidays together. Every Saturday. Despite having a class that day, we surely able to make it there. How I missed them very much. I really have a good times with them. Haha...at this rate, surely I going to talk over my flashback memories. Nah, let's put them aside.

Now, I'm listening my father's song. 'Perpisahan yang kau minta'. I really missed to hear him singing at the veranda while doing his work. Even knowing his voice isn't come out beautifully but he'll continue it. He just do what he wants to do. Sometimes, I also joined him. But mine is better. Haha...what the? Complaining the others and praising yourself.  Heh.

Entry 2 : Life isn't simple, right?

     Ahh...so tired today. I miss my mum. Oh, okay. Mentioning my family going to make my eyes watery. I lost my purse which means I lost my money. The baddest of all, I did't realize at all until I got into Cafe A. Seriously, I don't know where it goes to. But for God's sake, I rather not eating a lunch in a week in order to save money here. I save it on the things that I need to buy especially books or notes. I only get to eat if I really desperate for it. But now? How I'm gonna survive myself? I don't want to make my parents agitated about unrelevant things like this. How come I let them come here, which is far kilometers from home, just because of me? UNREASONABLE. They also tired from working too. Okay. Now the tears are flowing down fluently on my cheeks. Ahh...why it didn't want to stop? I know, it's just a small matter but it can be this big for me when you think about your parents. Oh God. I'm speechless. Really, really speechless.  I already looked to where I walked before this. I walked the same paths before I came to the cafe. But it's not there....sigh. What more I can do? It lost anyway. Even if I manage to find it, the money inside already gone, isn't? Haih...luck really is not mine here. Ahhh...tension. So,I want to take a nap, hoping this miserable thing didn't torture me anymore after I get up. Life must go on, right? But, still, it hurts me inside.

     From my point of view, I think that there's something behind this occurrence, it must be. I don't know what my God had set me something behind this. I just hope that tomorrow will be better and greater than today. Okay, wipe your tears and sleep. Thanks for reading. Bye.